Week 3 Theme: Equanimity
Equanimity wasn’t a familiar word to me prior to this week. In my own words it means meeting life where it meets you and practicing non reactivity. Staying with your breath. Calm through any struggle.
From the dictionary…
I needed this equanimity week so badly. I have been meeting my life with so much resistance lately, as many of you have probably noticed. I’ve been focusing on negativity and pushing back, instead of going with the flow.
Here are the words my group associated with equanimity…
Tues: Following Monday’s theme, Tuesday’s class just wasn’t all there for me. I came in with a lot of resistance and it was hard for me to have a good flow when my mind was elsewhere. I made the decision that Wednesday would be an off day!
Wed: OFF – walked at the gym and watched HGTV
Thurs: YES! The awesome class I’d been waiting for. Taking Wednesday off totally paid off. I was totally in the mood to get deep into the poses and push myself. And my splits are getting SO close!
Fri: Friday classes are called “Friday Flow” because they have music. This time it was straight up dance party. Easily the most fun yoga class I’ve ever been to! All of the current teacher trainees were there, and after 6 straight days of all yoga they were a riot. We sang, we bounced, we spirit fingered, we did a little bit of yoga, and we did tons of laughing. I love that my studio can be goofy like that some times!
Sat: OFF? – Saturday I woke up with the worst of my cold — ya know the one day that you barely feel human? So I cancelled 9am yoga and opted for a quick flow at home. I only made it through 20 minutes of this Tara Stiles video that I found from Katie before calling it a day. Body needed rest.
Sun: 4:30 Karma class (donation-based) was so fun! I felt a lot better on Sunday but could still tell my breathing wasn’t as easy or natural. I was so glad I went to yoga, but looking back I probably should have given it another day. Side note: before class my friend Gina looked at me and said, “Let’s do crazy sh*t and fall a lot!” –>awesome code for let’s push ourselves, try new things, and release any fear of failure. LOVE. IT.
Mon: OFF – Woke up not feeling great again. I went to work for a half day, but was achy, nauseous, and congested so I came home to sleep for the afternoon. Yoga got cancelled.
Wow. In just the first few pages of this week’s reading I was stunned. I immediately made a note to journal on intention – to dive deep into the purity of mine and make sure my intentions are all sound and not just feeding my ego. And then on religion — I loved his idea that we don’t have to get caught up in exact details and crazy stories, but rather the first step is to shift our vision toward developing a heart of faith and being open to things beyond the literal.
The part about giving up what we know was harder for me. Baptiste spoke a lot about giving up pure knowledge and facts given to use from others, and starting to live from our hearts and inner knowledge. I need to reflect more on that.
“In life we run into obstacles that upon first glance look like the fault of others, but a closer examination will often show that the obstacles can be a mirror of our own hidden barriers.”
“When we find the pureness of our intention, we unleash a force that has the miraculous and infinite ability to rally circumstances, energy, situations, synchronicity, and serendipity all on our behalf.”
“There is a certain leap of faith we need to take. The real phenomenon is in our consciousness, in the power of what’s possible.”
“…The root of the word education is educere, which means ‘to draw forth from within.'”
“We don’t change by thinking; we change by being and doing with pure intent.”
This week’s meeting was fun! We all shared individually, but also made it more of a group discussion on our triggers and how to better react to situations that bother us. There was lots of laughter over silly frustrations that we could all relate too, and also lots of talk about priorities, our egos, and acknowledging our emotions.
I definitely realized that I get the most easily upset when I view something as a hit to my ego, or when someone doesn’t have the same priorities as me. I need to work on taking a step back before I respond so that I can pause, reflect on what I’m feeling, and respond in a way I am proud of. Easier said than done!
I got sick this week. At first I was really upset about missing days of yoga, but then I realized how silly that was. I was SICK and my body needed rest, regardless of what 40 day period that occurred in! Pushing myself through more yoga when I didn’t feel good would have been doing my body a disservice. So, instead of letting perfectionism take over I did what was right and took a few days off. That was a practice in equanimity itself – meeting life where I am!
Equanimity is my new favorite word. (Well, second favorite. Grace will always be my favorite.) I think it came into my life just when I needed it because I had been definitely snapping, getting frustrated, and perhaps overreacting to certain situations around me. This week has helped me recognize those things and make a choice in how I react.