My last summer break is officially over. Yesterday I started classes again.
I have such mixed feelings. In one sense, it’s so excited to reunite with my class and move closer to the goal, but on the other hand, second year is really stressful. We take a full course load, start a little bit of clinical work, and have step one of our boards exams looming over our heads. We take step one in April, but some people have already been studying for months. Your score on this test really determines what specialty you can get into, so it’s a big deal!!
We started with a Cardiology lecture. A lot of it was review of the anatomy and physiology, but with some histology and clinical correlations thrown in. I sat outside with friends for lunch, chatted with a few of our deans, and got through emails. Then in the afternoon we had our second year convocation. The topics discussed:
- Professionalism at all times.
- Immunizations and FBI background checks we have to get.
- Choosing our graduation speaker (SAY WHAT? already!?)
- Developing a plan to start studying for step one. And how manage the stress of step one. And how much step one costs. And statistics about step one scoring. And how not to be defined by your test score, even though it’s super important. (Are you noticing that second year basically revolves around step one!?)
- Financial aid and how much debt we are all in.
After doing 25 minutes of treadmill intervals I had a quick job (I’m driving someone to art camp all week) and then made it home to prep for some yoga teaching. Two of my friends actually asked me to teach them because they were feeling sore, and it turned out to to be four people flowing in my living room. I’m getting more and more comfortable, but still notice myself using some language we try to avoid. Friday will be a real test when I teach at my studio!
I made a super fast one pan dinner (salmon + zucchini noodles + pesto + blueberries) and then allowed myself to watch Bachelor in Paradise with my roommates while I did some work on my computer (aka right now as I’m writing this.) I’d never seen the show before…it’s SO DUMB. I have a few papers to write for yoga teacher training that I’m hoping to get one done during the show, then I’ll head to my desk for some cardiology review before bed.
I’ve been thinking a lot about what this year means. It’s a big year for medical students and going to be a ton of work. I’m pretty overwhelmed and concerned about fitting everything in (HA. Blog title.) I’m going to have to practice some major time management if I will still be able to workout, teach yoga, and continue to blog on top of all the school stuff.
Blogging in Medical School09
Speaking of the blog, I’m putting in a lot of thought and having conversations about the direction it needs to go in. Vulnerable stuff is my jam, but unfortunately the medical field is pretty conservative. I don’t agree with it, but a lot of people have the idea vulnerability is weak and that sharing your struggles means you aren’t responsible or competent. I personally love when people are real, but I also have to be smart about things. A lot of medicine is subjective and depends on whether the higher ups like you. And people do check social media. So whether I like it or not there will have to topics I just can’t talk about.
I’d love your thoughts / advice from those going through the same thing.
Back to work!