**Please note: this post was originally written on August 27, 2013. I've alluded in previous recovery posts to some hormonal issues I've been dealing with lately, but never specifically addressed them. I decided not to share my story until I had good news to share, and I'm thrilled to say that I now do. I got my period back naturally after my anorexia when I was 20, at a BMI of around 18. I went on birth control right after that, and stayed on some form of birth control . . .
It had to be done. I've been doing some retail therapy. I have purchased new items in bigger sizes so that I have clothes that fit my new body. I was happy with my new clothes, but there was still a problem: I hadn't gotten rid of the old stuff. So last week I did a closet clean out. I went through and tried almost every single thing on. Most of the skirts wouldn't even zip up. The jeans wouldn't go over my butt. Chino shorts looked like spandex. Most of my tops still fit, but I . . .
It's so fun to share all of the newfound happiness and ease I've found since deciding to "truly" recover. I say "truly", because I really didn't consider myself "sick" before. I wasn't critically ill and was living a relatively normal existence - one that far too many accept as okay. I'd grown used to a lot of things that I didn't even realize could be so much better if I just let go of some of my anxieties and fears. I do have a few struggles, though. I struggle with body image, especially . . .