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I’ve created a little bit of an editorial calendar for the blog (meaning I have a sticky note on my desktop with post plans for the next two weeks = most organized the blog has ever been), but today I had to shuffle some things around and fit this post in. Yesterday I ate a looooot and it inspired me to write this.
So we all have those days when we are a bottomless pit.
5 minutes after your normal, filling breakfast you are starving. You dig into lunch at 10am. You need about 10 snacks to get you through until dinner. Food is freaking delicious and eating is awesome, but those days can be a little disconcerting and annoying.
Yesterday it was breakfast at 9, starving by 9:30 but I managed to drink some water and hold out my lunch until 11. Then my snacks were:
1. a Vans PB&J bar
2. half an avocado with sea salt
3. 1 cup edamame
4. Piece of toast with almond butter
5. UBER bar.
6. Almond milk with greens powder shake
7. baby carrots
And then the rest of my dinner and a few night time snacks. So yeah, a bottomless pit.
That’s a lot of food to eat within a few hours, and definitely more snacks then I would normally choose to or need to eat, but was that a BINGE? Absolutely not!
I get a lot of questions about my bingeing past: if I still do it, and how recovery was, how I stopped. A lot of times during recovery I found myself eating a TON OF FOOD and it almost felt like I binge because I could just keep going forever. In reality, I was just finally letting my body eat the amount it craved. It was different than my past binges.
Here’s the difference:
Yesterday I was not “out of control”. I was not eating mindlessly, eating when I was very clearly already full, and just sticking hand back into the bag in a repeated motion. I was able to stop when I felt a little satiated. I wasn’t secretive about it and I certainly did not feel guilty about it.
I WAS JUST HUNGRY!
IT happens! Really! I bet all of you can relate some time in the past when you were just weirdly freaking starving. And the best thing to do on those day is to FEED YOUR STOMACH. Try to do it with nourishing foods (I did my best!) and drink lots of water to see if maybe that last snack did the trick, but do NOT just let yourself be miserable and starving.
I’m not an RD, so I can’t say for sure exactly what’s going on when this happens. Our bodies are strange but smart, and some days they just need more food. There might be a good reason, it might make no sense. I didn’t do any strenuous exercise or skip meals the day before to make my hunger seem valid, it was just there.
So I ate. a lot. But I did NOT binge.