Catching up quickly about fourth year planning and why I’m dreading surgery!
I worked yesterday and now sort of have two days off, since Monday is an “Applied Clinical Skills” day. Usually it just involves a lecture on some sort of practical “being a doctor” topic. Most of the residents and attending physicians at the hospital mockingly call it our mental health day, but it’s kind of true!! We get one each block and it is so awesome to have a random day off to get our lives together. I’m all for mental health days!
Fourth Year Planning
Tomorrow’s meeting is with our deans and it’s all about fourth year. WHAT!? I feel like I just started med school and now I’m a few months away from my final year. Fourth year is known to be pretty great, especially after the grueling schedule of third year. But it also involves a lot of planning. We get to create our own schedule, with the exception of a few required courses. That means we get spend more time working in the field we want to pursue – I cannot WAIT! We also have to take the second round of our licensing boards and apply for residency. They are going to explain to us how all that works, what kinds of things we need to be planning for (lots of travel and money spent for interviews!) and how to be strategic about our schedules. It should be a very helpful meeting.
But before I get to fourth year I have one last hoop to jump through: SURGERY. It’s my last core clerkship of this year and I am really not looking forward to it. I know that’s a terrible attitude! The OR is really interesting, but I am 99.9% sure I’m not going to be a surgeon. What I’m dreading most is the schedule. I could be at the hospital from 5am to 6 or 7pm, six days per week, depending on my team. Everyone has to do it, and God bless the people that choose that as their career, but I’m already anticipating my anxiety to be a mess. I’m someone that needs sleep, exercise, and a little down time to feel my best, and I don’t see that being very realistic on a day to day basis during my surgery rotation. It’s not the greatest lifestyle for wellness!
I’m trying to be proactive about the situation. First, there is nothing I can do about it. It’ll be two months of my life and then it’s over. Not a big deal, and definitely not worth spending this much time stressing over. Second, this could be the only time in my life that I get to be in the OR every day, seeing incredible, life-saving surgeries! My goal is to remember that each day and focus on the education and privilege instead of the exhaustion. No patient wants to think about a frustrated, tired med student in the room when they are having major surgery, so I need to get my act together and recognize that this isn’t just about me.
I am also going to make sure I set myself up for as much success as possible by focusing on self care. I may end up spending a little more money on prepared meals, planning on quick at home workouts and yoga, and just not worrying if other to-dos get pushed aside for a little bit. (Sorry blog!) 3:45am wake ups mean SLEEP will be the priority!! Please give me your tips if you’ve done this before!
(Looked up Colette Werden after reading this quote. She’s calls her business an “image development hub for driven female entrepreneurs and professionals.” I really just love the focus on *grace* here!)
Alright – back to my productive, planning, desire-mapping day! Feeling pretty motivated and excited right now, so I’m going to try to channel that into some great stuff! Have a fabulous day! xoxo