This has been on my mind for a while.
I am hesitant to post because every time the idea pops into my head it’s during one of those bad body image days. It’s those days that I have to ignore my thoughts the most and recommit to my new happy, healthy life. I don’t want anyone to think I want to diet or get super thin again. I don’t.
BUT I do want to feel good. I want to be able to eat well and make decisions to pass on a piece of cake, and maybe order a salad instead of fries. I want to be in shape and feel strong. I don’t want to be super skinny, but I do want to be fit and confident.
Can I do that? Can anyone in eating disorder recovery focus on eating well and exercising often? Where is the line you have to draw? At what point do you cross the line? Is it even reasonable to toe that line at all?
Health is important to me. I have a small background in nutrition, and I fully believe in fueling your body with healthy foods. I think it helps with mental and physical health and has the ability to completely change the way we feel. I believe in exercise. I believe in lifting weights, making my heart pump, and sweat. I believe in making those two things a priority and taking care of myself.
But I also believe in moderation. I believe in recovery and positive body image. In eating that piece of cake when you want it. In not caring about the number on the scale or the size of your pants, but rather how happy and vibrant you are. In enjoying time with family and friends and not worrying about whether or not you’ve eaten enough vegetables that day.
Can you do both?
Maybe it depends on your phase of life. Recently, the nutrition and fitness portion have taken a backseat to more important endeavors that required eating whatever I wanted and resting my body.
But can the focus shift again? Where is the right middle ground?
I have a feeling I’m going to get a wide range of answers on this, likely because everyone’s recovery looks different. I’m sure there are some that will say that I should never again be “in training” for anything or following a fitness plan. People that think I shouldn’t ever eat low calorie things or have a salad for lunch.
Then again there are people that have made nutrition and health their focus in recovery. Vegans, yoga instructors, and health coaches. I’m curious as to their point of view as well.
I don’t think there is one right way, but I’m struggling to find what works for me.
- So what do you think? Can you be “healthy” in recovery?