Total change of topic. I didn't really watch the Emmys. I sort of did while reading chemistry, but I didn't pay attention. I don't watch TV except for the morning news, and I didn't even know they were on until like 6:30pm. As usual, the main interest to me in awards shows is the red carpet. Here are a few of my fav dresses from Sunday night: For other fav award show fashion:Fav Oscar Dresses 2013SAG Best DressedGolden Globes Dresses2012 Emmys Best Dressed Sophia Vergara. Gosh she's a . . .
I've learned a lot over the past few months of true recovery, weight gain, and getting my period back. I notice that lots of people, when asking me about my experience and while struggling with their own, are always curious what I weigh. They want to know what I used to weigh, what I weigh now, how much I gained, if I'm still gaining, etc. That, I believe, has a lot to do with the preoccupation with numbers as well as the societal expectation to be skinny. Interestingly, I don't even know what I . . .
Phew. I know I could definitely use a little happy and pretty in my life right now. Maybe you do too? Enjoy. source source source source source source . . .
I mentioned in a Five Things Friday a few weeks ago that I'd be sharing more about lobbying with the Eating Disorders Coalition. Today I have a guest post from Matt Wetsel, a male Anorexia survivor and volunteer with the EDC. He contacted me a few weeks ago to help him out with a Virginia-based lobbying team. Matt has done extensive research, written award-winning papers, and knows a lot about the insurance disparities that those in need of eating disorder treatment face. I'm really . . .
**Please note: this post was originally written on August 27, 2013. I've alluded in previous recovery posts to some hormonal issues I've been dealing with lately, but never specifically addressed them. I decided not to share my story until I had good news to share, and I'm thrilled to say that I now do. I got my period back naturally after my anorexia when I was 20, at a BMI of around 18. I went on birth control right after that, and stayed on some form of birth control . . .
It had to be done. I've been doing some retail therapy. I have purchased new items in bigger sizes so that I have clothes that fit my new body. I was happy with my new clothes, but there was still a problem: I hadn't gotten rid of the old stuff. So last week I did a closet clean out. I went through and tried almost every single thing on. Most of the skirts wouldn't even zip up. The jeans wouldn't go over my butt. Chino shorts looked like spandex. Most of my tops still fit, but I . . .
When my mom and I decided to go to to Big Cedar Lodge for a girls' weekend, she sent me a PDF of the activity options and told me to pick out a few things that looked fun. I told her Stand Up Paddle boarding looked fun, but she said she didn't think she'd be able to. Then I looked farther and saw Stand Up Paddle Board YOGA and told her that's what we were going to do. Because if paddle boarding seems hard, why not throw yoga in the mix!? Luckily my mom is up for anything, and agreed to . . .
It's so fun to share all of the newfound happiness and ease I've found since deciding to "truly" recover. I say "truly", because I really didn't consider myself "sick" before. I wasn't critically ill and was living a relatively normal existence - one that far too many accept as okay. I'd grown used to a lot of things that I didn't even realize could be so much better if I just let go of some of my anxieties and fears. I do have a few struggles, though. I struggle with body image, especially . . .
My clothes don't fit. In the past few weeks I've chosen to take my health seriously and conquer my eating issues once and for all. I'm eating more and working out less. Truthfully, if my metabolism weren't so damaged I may not be gaining much weight. However due to years of under-fueling for the amount of exercising I was doing, it seems that my body isn't quite happy where it is. So I'm finally letting my body heal and learn to trust me. That means eating consistently more and not stressing my . . .
***This post was written in July of 2013. It is not intended as a diagnosis or to provide medical treatment. It is simple a reflection of my own struggles and how I worked through them. As an update, I am now happily eating disorder free!***** After finally coming to terms with the fact that I was binge eating; after reading all about the symptoms, causes, and treatment options; after analyzing my own behaviors, talking to therapists, reading books, and committing to recovery; after . . .