A life update and talk about the family med and psychiatry stigma, plus an exciting memory I had from when I lived in Dallas!
The number one thing you all requested in my Reader Feedback Survey was more general life updates. So, I’m trying to just sit down and write more often without any specific topic in mind. I legitimately have no clue what is going to come out of this, but here we go! It’s like true journaling!
I’m on a pediatric specialty team right now where we see GI and renal patients. Considering I have always leaned toward primary care over a specialty, I surprisingly find the work a lot more interesting than when I was on the general inpatient team. Perhaps we just see more unique conditions, and those are a little more exciting to me in my very young medical career. Regardless, it’s been really educational to work up different presentations and learn about their management. I have just a few more days on the inpatient side before I move over to outpatient clinics.
Family Med & Psychiatry Stigma
It’s really discouraging how different medical specialties talk about one another. There are reputations and stigmas for each one, even though they are all necessary and all need to work together! I shared an Instagram post during a break in the action earlier today. It spurred from a random cafeteria conversation, and one that isn’t at all unusual. I talked about how family medicine and psychiatry are often seen as the “easy way out” or the “lesser” careers. The things people only do when they aren’t competitive enough to Match into another specialty. People make disparaging comments about family med and psychiatry without even realizing someone might actually want to go into those fields!
Those are two specialties I’m very interested in, and have been from the beginning. I find preventative health and mental health incredibly important. I’m interested in keeping people well. I have personally experienced the way a psychiatric condition can affect and change your entire life. It’s frustrating that my interests and passions are often mislabeled as inferior or a cop out.
You all seemed to share my sentiment, and the post got a lot of comments and feedback! It makes me so happy that I’m not alone, and that so many other people value these things as well. There is a strong group of ladies out there pushing for patient wellness and better mental healthcare!
An Exciting Memory
Lastly, I’ve had another thing on my mind ever since I wrote the FAQ post about my eating disorder. I have a distinct memory from back when I was living in Dallas about six years ago. This was before my career change. I was working at a small ad agency, writing a lot of fitness content online, and doing a somewhat ridiculous amount of running and Crossfit. And I was miserable. I hated my job and felt absolutely zero passion day to day. I was still struggling with my body image, and 99% of my life revolved around what I ate and how much exercise I got. It was about this time that I decided I needed a major change. (Which I definitely got!)
Circa 2013 with these amazing girlfriends – one of the best things about my time in Dallas!
Anyway, the memory stems from a rude blog comment I got that criticized my lifestyle choices. Not that it was completely out of line, but those comments usually aren’t written in the nicest of ways. I remember thinking, “All I want is to be so passionate about something, so caught up in my life and my career, that I don’t even have time to worry about my food and exercise. I want to be too busy for it. Give me something – anything – else to be my priority.”
And I’m there. I’m a little too there, to be honest! Medical education isn’t always the best for wellness and it has taken a concerted effort to ensure I still prioritize my health. But thinking back to where I was then and where I am now is like night and day. I DID IT. I found that something and made the change. Food and exercise now add to my life and bring me joy instead of anxiety. I just can’t believe how different I feel. It’s pretty awesome!!
Alright – got my spontaneous rambling out for tonight. It’s bed time for me with another very early wake up tomorrow morning. Let me know if you guys enjoy this type of spur-of-the-moment posting! xoxo