Yesterday was just one of those days.
Just when I thought I was finished with my yucky cold, I woke up feeling like it had gotten worse again. I was foggy for most of the morning, but had a ton of work to do for my impending harp gig and neurology test.
I unexpectedly had to deal with some friend issues (Wish I could share, but that wouldn’t be cool. Just know it’s not at all fun.) And then I started cranking away on some lectures.
I started to get really anxious. I could actually feel myself getting anxious – something I’m very grateful I can recognize now – and texted my friend Stephanie about it. She gets me, and was there to validate my feelings but also suggest some strategies.
I was still working away when Stephanie texted that we should meet at the park for a walk. My immediate reaction was “No, I don’t have time! I have to study!” but then I realized a walk in the sunshine sounded amazing. After battling traffic on the busy park for far too long, I ended up meeting Stephanie later than expected. I was supposed to have a workout starting soon, but she encouraged me to ditch and go on our walk instead. I felt a little guilty about ditching, but I knew that I needed vitamin D and girl talk.
(I don’t snap much, but it’s @cdbrady)
We walked for an hour and just caught up, shared our stressors and anxieties, commiserated, and got a little giddy over boys a few times too 😉 A long chat with an understanding friend is sometimes just what the doctor ordered.
That night I had dinner with my parents, got to play with the little neighbor kids a little, but came home feeling worked up again. Little things that normally wouldn’t bother me were making me a wreck. I cried for no reason. I knew I just needed sleep, but of course my mind wouldn’t shut off when I got into bed. Finally around midnight I got some rest.
Bad days suck. Anxiety + stressful classes make bad days happen more often than I’d like. I’m so glad for good friends that know what I need and happy I’ve become self-aware enough to give myself some relaxation and talk-therapy. I’m still thinking I need a nap this afternoon, but today is already so much better.
I think I’ll make a calendar for everything I need to study before my test next Thursday. Planning to study is actually more stress relieving than actually studying. If only it worked that way!! Then some yoga and out to dinner for my dad’s birthday tonight! I’ve got lots going on, and it gets to me sometimes, but I am so grateful for all of it.
- What do you do when you’re having bad days? Who is the one person you can always call to make you feel better?