Talking about what self care looked like for me this week, when I was feeling a little off.
Hey friends! Happy Saturday!
I worked on inpatient pediatrics for the last time this morning, and we ended up discharging nearly every patient. It seemed fitting. We finished pretty early and I was able to get to the gym when it opened at 10am. I thought I’d run, but ended up not feeling it and so just walked for about 40 minutes while watching an episode of Fixer Upper.
Really, I haven’t been feeling working out much at all this past week. I got in a really great leg workout on Tuesday, but then Wednesday morning I woke up with bad upper back pain. That’s not unusual for me – I get nasty knots in my neck and shoulders fairly often – but this came out of the blue! A friend asked me to go to a spin class with her, but I didn’t feel up to it. Instead I went home and did some light yoga. I foam rolled and used these massage balls which hurt so much, and then I put some heat on the area.
Deep Tissue Massage
Unfortunately it wasn’t any better Thursday morning. I was trying to avoid paying for a massage, but Thursday afternoon I couldn’t ignore it anymore. The idea of working out, or doing anything really, sounded so uncomfortable, so I booked one at my favorite Morganford Massage & Spa. I went on a walk outside before getting an incredible deep tissue massage. She spent most of the time loosening up my neck and got a few of the knots out of my shoulders. I left feeling like a new person, but wanting more! My neck was much better, but I could still feel some of the painful spots in my shoulders.
I was hoping to be up for a good workout on Friday, but I was just absolutely exhausted. My body just still felt kind of weak and achy. So instead of the gym I took a nap after work. Friday night I used some extra Classpass points to take a restorative (read: basically nap time) yoga class that was so peaceful. I slept really well afterward and this morning finally felt up for the gym! But of course, once I got there, my body kind of rejected running and lifting weights. Just still a little off. So I walked instead, which ended up feeing great.
This week has been a good lesson in self care. Sometimes self care looks like making time for tough workouts and checking things off my to-do list. Other times it looks like taking a little time-out for restoration. The former me would have pushed through any pain and exhaustion and forced myself to get in a tough, sweaty workout each day. I wouldn’t have let myself slow down at all. But I’m getting so much better at listening to what I really need. I let myself ditch my usual routine and ignore the mean body image or self-worth voices that sometimes creep up. And I’m feeling so much calmer and rested today. My back is feeling much better and I’m really digging the slow alone time I’ve been giving myself.
I love the happy endorphins of a good workout, so I hope my body is feeling more energized and up for them soon! But for now i’ll continue taking it easy, doing some juicy yoga and stretches, and taking good care of myself.
- How did you practice self care this week?